It's 4 a.m. and I'm Angry

I'm angry that I'm awake
I'm angry that I'm obsessing about the design choices I made for our new house
I'm angry that my husband sat in the lobby on the phone because he didn't care
I'm angry that I do care
I'm angry that we're getting "organic" color carpet rather than tan
I'm angry at the design center lady for too many reasons to list
I'm angry at that I feel like we judge each other based on these things
I'm angry that the computer glare hurts your eyes at 4 a.m.
I'm angry that I can wake up at 4 a.m. worried about this
but I can't wake up a 4 a.m. to pray for my kids, or world peace, or my neighbor,
or the design center lady, or my coworkers, or something WAY more important...

Lord I'm angry and I don't want to be.....